Hi tumblr. Been back in Melbourne for almost a week now. Leaving back to Manila in 2 days. Excited but I’m seriously missing Auckland. :(

Every waking moment feels like wasted time. I want to not feel like you’re the last guy on the planet. I’m young and there’s more life out there. But at this moment, this is what it feels like.

I don’t know how to put into words how did this day go. But after today, I seriously don’t wanna leave Auckland.

It all make sense to me now. Who I’m really looking forward seeing. And how this is all gonna end in one big heartache plus one. But I’m still risking it. I figured, it wouldn’t hurt as long as I’m not gonna hurt anyone but myself and since I’m not doing anything about it. I’m just in the sidelines.

I can take it. or maybe this will be gone in a few days when I barely see and talk to him. Being infatuated with someone is a weird feeling. Maybe I need to branch out. Meet new people.

Or maybe this is how it’s always going to be.